Friday, March 19, 2010

"In Hollywood they say there's no business like show business..in the hood they say there's no business like ho business.." -50 Cent (And he sure ain't wrong)

It's true that there really is no business like escorting. No business that offers the chance for such addictively fast cash in such a short space of time, and no business that will show you in such a short space of time what (some) men are really all about...
It's not THE most dangerous business around, but it's well up there in the top 10. And one of the main dangers of this trade is that once you're in then it hooks you...so many women are completely hooked on the fast bucks you can make (including me). The longer you're in the industry, then the harder it will be to exit...because once you cross that line into escorting don't think you'll be stepping back into normality any time soon. Something inside of you changes, and it changes for the worst. For starters, you'll lose any romantic illusions you once held about men and relationships...they really ARE all about one thing. You'll find yourself initially shocked at the bestiality of male sexuality, and the seemingly inherent ability that these men have to lie and deceive. Some of them are even lying to themselves, not just their "significant" others...
When you first start out you'll kid yourself that you can handle it, you're strong enough, and all these men that you don't even like or find attractive paying money to screw you has no impact....and then you'll try to leave and have a "normal" life, possibly a "normal" relationship...only then will you realise how much it has really wrecked your head. Every time your boyfriend is late home, you'll wonder what he's REALLY doing. You'll wonder if you are now on the receiving end of the same thing all those men's wives and girlfriends were with you, and then when you have sex, he'll do or say something and it'll remind you of a punter...
The other problem when you try and step back into the "real" world, aside from the lack of readily available income, is the fact that you find you've almost forgotten who YOU really are. You've become so used to putting on an act for €250 an hour that you almost lose the REAL you. Now to anyone who feels they are strong enough to handle this job, and has never suffered any kind of psychological distress, then I say fair play to you, and long may it stay that way......but to the many who have experienced considerable mental trauma, then I can only say: stay safe, make as much money as you can, ....then get the fuck out... xxx